Bucket List: Lady Gaga and Ian Somerhalder

Two of the people I really want to meet or at least see in person within this mediocrity of life are Lady Gaga and Ian Somerhalder. And guess what, their here in our country, Philippines, right now. They both actually just arrived--- Lady Gaga at around 9pm and Ian just now. Lady Gaga is here for her Monster Ball Concert and Ian for Penshoppe All Stars.

Lady Gaga. A lot of people, mostly on the religious sector, are trying to stop her Monster Ball. I guess they have a good point why it should be stopped but in my opinion, it still depends on one person either to just enjoy her music or believe in her faith. I am a Catholic Christian and I know my faith, I know myself. I am attending her concert with my 3 siblings but I guess it won't bring our soul in hell. We'll be there to just enjoy the night together and sing the songs of Gaga which we listen to on road trips and on boring days at home. My siblings are 8, 11 and 17 and I guess being an illuminati is not understandable with their age. And I guess, it never will enter their mind being such because we know what our parents want us to be and being in the Lady Gaga concert would never change this fact. Actually, Gaga had been an inspiration to everyone who've been bullied and maltreated just like how she had been through before and because of this it isn't really practical to stop her concert. Most especially, we bought our middle row seats already. Haha! So please, don't torture us by stopping the concert. And I guess, it is not really good to stop it now. You'll just waste money and I guess it's a win-lose game if that comes to a point.

Ian Somerhalder. All girls out there claim that he's their husband. Including me, of course. Vampire Diaries had been so hot because of him and Paul, and the rest of the cast actually, ALL OF THEM! I guess, I deserve to see him but this is such a last minute chance. I have to search on a free pass or at least a cheap pass through his appearances. I was supposed to go with some friends tonight at the airport to meet him or at least have a glimpse of his pretty face but I guess the opportunity just lapsed out because it had been a big confusion where he's straight to. While I am typing this right now, fans are already screaming at the airport right now and I just feel envious. Tomorrow I guess he's in Bora and it's more impossible to meet him. On the 23rd, he'll be having a PresCon and 60 fans are only allowed. It's not even a meet and greet, just a part of the audience. So 3 days pass gone, then comes the 26th for the Philippine Fashion Week. This is my only chance but look how lucky I am, my family's having a day out together that day. Another day down. It's only on this last minute mall appearance that I will get the chance but it is not yet official, no official day yet, so I am still walking through waters with it. I am still hoping to see him. One week should be enough for me to find a way. 
(P.S. Thank you to all my friends who are addict with TVD, for encouraging and enlightening me. This feeling wouldn't be present if it wasn't because of you. Hahaha. Most especially CJ who sat down with me last October for TVD!)


If I will be able to see them both, well Lady Gaga should be sure at least (Don't Cancel. Please) I'll be able to check them out from my bucket list. It will take a lot of effort to find a way, most especially Ian's. So I guess, I SHOULD FIND A DAMN WAY.

Certified One Direction Fan Girl

I will honestly admit here that I am a huge fan of One Direction! That moment I learned about them last year, I immediately became so obsessed with what they do. It's a fan-girl thing. But who cares, I am really an avid fan, no one can ever change that!

So basically, I've watched all their music videos, video diaries and all stuffs. I follow all of them on twitter. I liked their fan pages on facebook. These made me know all their events.  I keep on with updates and I even tweet them almost every night. But Upto now I still haven't achieved that dream of being replied by them but I know, soon, I'll have one tremendous message from them. That would be the best day of my life! 

Isa and Jen know how obsessed I am with One Direction. I admit, I'm a DIRECTIONER. Hahahaha! Basta. It's how they call the fans. So I guess, that was the reason why they surprised me with this. I've been longing to buy this a long time ago. I was even supposed to attend the Philippine launching of the album at SM the Block last February but I was very torned between going to the launch or have a meet and greet with Lucy Hale in MOA. The two events happened on the same date on two exact opposite locations. I didn't know how to divide myself with that circumstance. But in the end, I chose Lucy Hale since it's a meet and greet. Since then, I never had the time to buy the album. Anyway, I have downloaded the whole album already a long time ago. Hahaha! But still, my bad. I was just too lucky to have sweet friends who made my wish come true. Haha.

They gave this to me earlier during our review. Honestly, I was really surprised. They told me it was a super duper late birthday surprise for me. It was way too funny because I caught them. Well, not exactly. Chloe spoke out loud to Jen about Isa calling. I asked Jen several times why and she never answered. That was the start of the guessing game. So they just told me they needed to go photocopy some stuffs. But of course, I myself had an idea already. To cut the story short, I was in our room texting my sister when suddenly Jen and Isa were there approaching. They handed me a kettle popcorn. So okay--- food. Hahaha! Kidding! But then they handed next the album! And I was bloody screaming to death. Geeeeeeeze! I guess I looked so embarrassing earlier but I really failed to contain the surprise. I had an idea that there was something going on but seeing them hand me that CD was way pretty cool for my day. I just then realized after I scrambled on the floor and jumped like crazy that they were taking photos and videos of me. Dayyyym. Haha. Everything just went quickly so I re-watched the video. And O my balls! I was inZAAAAYN!!! Hahaha! Chloe took the video and it was all views of my big tummy. Haha. But it was really funny, Jen and I were laughing while watching it. I was even fooled, ALMOST, with the signatures on the CD. I thought it was true. My reaction upon seeing it was really funny. The innocence was priceless but the near ignorance was the winning moment. Hahaha!

Thank you to my awesome friends for making this day extraordinaire! You just really know how to make me happy. So now, help me have a tweet from Louis, Zayn, Harry, Niall and Liam (Jen's 1D crush)! Hahaha!

Ta-tah!

PRC Problems

Yesterday was supposed to be our scheduled date for our PRC application. PRC went to UST to have our requirements checked and done. But since I was sick last week, I needed to go home in Ilocos. I only learned about the scheduled PRC application last Sunday and I had no time to get back in Manila that time and catch the filing the next morning since May 7 was marked as an off day for us (based on the given schedule). So, too unlucky for me, I had to do it myself in PRC Morayta. Dayyyyym! And the story started there. P.S. Thanks to my friends Jen and Ai for having my papers photocopied! Big help!!! Yay!

I thought I was lucky because my friends Drazen and Janelle were inside. I thought I could make some singit sessions there. But then I arrived at Morayta with a line of people reaching the bridge. (Gulp!) What am I supposed to do? I rushed at the start of the line to check if my friends were there but I was pretty much wrong about that. I saw none of them. It ends up for me falling at the end of the line. Hassle! It was 8 am that time. Lucky for me because the line was just free flowing. I got to step inside around 10 minutes later or less.  The only problem I experienced outside during the line, I guess, was because of the vendors of glues, pastes and envelopes. They were provoking us on buying. My mind was terrorized because they acted really well. I almost believed them. I almost gave a bite. It was just pretty good for me to realize what our professors did tell us about the requirements. I cannot remember them telling us to bring gallons of pastes and having specific kinds of envelopes, except for the mailing envelope of course. And take note, they even made CEDULA-MAKING a business. Fraud! Tsk tsk. But then, it was just too funny because "bumenta talaga mga tinderang yun sakin." Hypnotized! No, better name me as  Fooled. UTU-UTO!!! Almost!

Well, back to the story. I was already hurrying to find my friends because all I was seeing at that moment were lines. Long lines of people everywhere! I just needed to call Janelle so I could find them more easily. I got lost at first but thank God I finally saw them. But then, dilemmas came in and in. I had no doc stamps yet, no mailing envelope, no whatsoever. I got pretty messed up even if I wasn't showing that I was. The processing took almost an hour, I guess that was the longest part of it. Then I had a slight problem about it too. My photo wasn't scanned. I submitted my photo already but maybe it wasn't processed yesterday since I wasn't there to apply. Goodness, they made a way quickly. I didn't need to fall back in line again. 

I met a lot of nursing graduates from different places. All were clamoring about the singit problems. I was just fortunate they never caught me! Haha! The PRC officers kept on calling our names. Every section of the process, I guess, my name was called. If I had to win a dollar on every call, I might have had my payment free alread. Hahaha, seriously! Then when I had to pay already, there was an old man officer who was very rude on us examiners. He kept on pushing us away from the seats we were in just to give way to people who never even took the line from the start. SINGIT PROBLEMS!!! Before I got my temper high, my name was called by the cashier. Handed her a thousand for the 900 pesos fee (which is as good as my allowance for 3 days!) Then from there, I proceeded to the last step which was the 12th window. I thought it would only take some minutes. But that some minutes turned out to be half an hour. And the window lady officer was again rude! Dayyyym, can't they get enough of that rudeness? But then there, almost 30 minutes of waiting and my NOA was already issued. Time check: 10 am! Time to go home! But since I was bleeding of thirst, I passed by Simple Line Morayta and gulped some drinks.

With this experience, I learned that graduating as a Thomasian nurse is such a privilege.  I guess it was just lucky enough we're among those schools who had PRC come to us personally for a lesser pain filing. Well except with my case because I wasn't present during the hassle-free application inside our building itself. Haha. But I guess, because of it I learned. Well, at least now I can say that I am a lot more at ease with my confidence with the board exams. I thought I'll never gonna make it with the filing with the busy review schedule we have. Thank goodness! I am just so lucky to have good friends most especially Jen. I was really touched because she thought of my sake yesterday. *Hugs

Well then, I just thought that I needed to share this. I guess the experience was just too funny. FOR ME, AT LEAST. Hahaha!

Ta-tah!

March It Up!

March is my favorite month! There are a few reasons why and to top it is because of the thought that it's my birthday month. Plus to it, all my graduations since I was in pre-school happened during the month of March. Well, obviously. This time, it is a lot more than a special month to me. It is simply the best month ever! I guess, this would be the first time that I would summarize a Month's treat. So how was March? It went this way...

Seeing my High School friends once again was one of the best parts of this Month. I reunited with them and it felt like I was in St. Paul again. Most importantly, Tanya is back! She went to USA a long time ago, way back when we were still in third year high and it is only now that she came back home. Well, FINALLY! After the long period of missing each other. It was a good bonding day together with other friends. I really missed them because busy times left us far away from each other. Now that we were able to see each other again, life is again happier by a day.

I spent most of my March with Boobie Traps. We talked about spending more time together because this might be the last month that we could have a quality time as College girl friends. So we really tried our best to insert dates for us. Another good thing is, they finally met a High School friend of mine. I mean like, personally, the serious way. They met Ben and we met Jorelle, who is Ben's friend who happened to be a friend of our other friends too. Did you get it? Small world, isn' it? But anyway, March wouldn't be complete without them. We went on discovering a lot of things this month. It's a countless experience for us. The memories we had in the last days of college was worth the money and the time we spent for them. Love you Boobies as always!

I've been a part of the 8,000 Thomasians who excitedly exited the Arch of the Centuries last March 23. It was very memorable because I was with my friends who I've been with since the start of College. It was exhausting but crazily fun. That moment, I became very proud to belong with the Thomasian Family.

And finally! The most awaited college graduation also happened this month. It was awesome and eventful. It was perfect! I can't explain it in words but it felt so much good after the graduation because I really absorbed to myself that I have already gained what's rightfully to be deserved. Well, I hope I deserve it. And I guess, I really do. I am just so blessed to be able to graduate in UST because of the education that it gives to every student. It comes with quality and I never regret entering this school. I am also too lucky to be with my friends and my family, most especially. They have been there eversince, most especially to my family, who have always encouraged me to do the best that I can. It is now that everything sinks in me. It feels so good to graduate full of love from the people who continuously believes in me. And it is all worth it to make them as my inspiration in this journey.

This month, I fell in love again.

Lastly, and most importantly, like I've said earlier, March is my birthday month. Last March 19 at 3pm in the afternoon, I officially turned 20 years old. I really thank God for giving me another year of life to be able to experience happiness and love. Without that birthday, I will not be able to achieve everything that I had this month.

March is indeed my lucky month. A happy month. Not only did I achieve things but also, I realized so many thoughts I needed to know. I was also able to achieve a better lifestyle. Hahaha. I have already jogged a few times this month and I "tried" to diet myself from food. Hahaha. Well then, I guess I'm left out of words. Good bye March! It was far beyond happiness being with you :)

College Drama

There are so many reasons why I love college. I may have hated it at times but the fact that I had a great time with great people during the stay suppressed the hate feeling. I don't wanna end up in tears after I finish this blog but just thinking about it now, my eyes are about to get drowned already. Haha.


So why did I love COLLEGE LIFE? It's a long list, but I'll try to make it as brief and as meaningful as possible. Here we go!

1. Jen and Isa 

I swear, this is our first photo together. I tried to search it in Multiply. Hahaha.

My two awesome friends who made my stay a lot easier. I never thought I could ever find friends like them. I never thought first day in college would be that fun. 

I met Jen first since she was my seatmate. The silent one who I thought would never ever open her mouth. She laughed at times but I barely hear it, honestly! Isa was in front of Jen. The girl with the big big big heart! Hahaha! She was named as our section's canteen because she had a bag full of snacks. O well, not only snacks, I should rather say. 

There'd been a lot of memories with them. I was down and they picked me up! (Yeeeees!) Maybe it was a lot harder in first year without them. No words can ever explain how much I love them both. Every heart break we each had was easier than a burden because we knew that we would always be there for each other. The three of us together, ALWAYS. And together with Yvonne and Fatima, they were the first ones who I brought home in Ilocos. Sad times, yes there where but Happy times, a lot more than anything else! Love you both!

Ilocos Norte Lighthouse. Cause jumpshot was really cool then!

2. BSN I-1

The winning moment! Leggo!

First photo ever! :))

Make Your Mama Pena Proud! Her Birthday. :)

Well, what can I say? It's a pocket full of memories! Yes, I can remember young and wild memories. It was with them that I saw that college could be High School once again. We were really young then, a lot of times we just laughed during class hours. Group study was a laughing time but had really gave a big help on us in trying to catch the cut off. At first, it was really tough. There were a lot of personalities and characters to deal with but because of that one big moment, the Sabayang Pagbigkas, our unity as section 1 was made into a solid mark.  Tears, laughter, everything. It was everything that I felt along with them. But at the middle of the academic year, the bond was tested. We went on through the rocks. But with several talks, we finally understood the differences of each other. I would not ever forget that moment because I cried. As far as I could remember, I was the first one who cried. Because I really knew that the class really meant the world to me, honestly. But after what happened, I guess, the bond we had even got stronger. I deeply know it. Too much of the drama, I know, we are I-1 upto now!

3. Section 5

First Christmas Party :)

UST at 400 Celebration 

Rizal Field Trip

Last Christmas Party. Bittersweet. :)

Retreat

I've been with them for almost 3 years to date. Three years, it's never a joke. It was really hard at first. Adjusting kills. I thought, I would never learn to deal with it. I was wrong, because not only that I was able to deal with it but I learned how to love my classmates. It was another set of people to interact with but time helped to merge the gaps in between. One thing I really love about our section is that each person complement another. Because of it, a lot of memories was stored. A lot of times, we were put down. There was even a time when almost all our professors turned their backs against us. The feeling sucks but we tried our best to never give up in proving ourselves. We're not the star section but we know within ourselves, we're one of the strongests. I will never ever forget the time when Ma'am Chua scolded us because of sleeping in class. When Doc A almost gave up because the effort in us wasn't there. When Ma'am Rebueno and Sir Ranoco got frustrated when confusion arised in our schedule. And when we disappointed Ma'am Medrana because of a dire behavior. All of those experiences made us get better, stand up with our two feet and aim the highest possible. It was when Mr. Sumile never left our side, cried with us during that moment when we were so down. All of these things, we have surpassed because of the effort we tried to put together as a class to prove that we got something good within us. All of those mistakes helped us achieve who we are and what we have right now. Five Cum Laudes, 13 Research publications, 46 beautiful people, I know we deserve all of it after all the things we've been through. Thank you classmates for the wonderful memories! I will never ever forget each one of you for the rest of my life. You all truly made a mark in my heart. :)

4. NCP

It all started in our Ilocos Trip

The siblings I never had. Honestly, my family had always been asking about you guys since then. Your 1 week stay at home might have cleaned our groceries and fridge but had made a special place in our family's heart. Thank you for being my best friends in College!

5. RLE 2

With Ma'am Iglesia

NCMH

With Sir Pangan

My favorite RLE! Hahaha! Of course! The group that makes me smile everyday. The group that made me grow as a person and as student. Without them, I would never really learn as much as I have learned now. One by one, I will fish you. Forgive me, it's my blog anyway. Haha.

Katya, my personal favorite! Hahaha. Big joke. The romantic, the beer whore (JOKE!) But honestly, you're one good friend. Thank you for comforting me when I had this heart breaking moment in my life which only you who really knew the whole story of it. I love you not just because our birthdays are on consecutive days but because you've been a very true friend to me. Thank you for the boob fights. Much appreciated! *flat face* :))

Jane, my shopping soulmate! Thank you for always making me feel that I could do better than what I believe I can. You've always been a great sister to me. My alcoholmate, well, together with Katya. My partymate. My secret keeper. I love you Jane! I owe you so much!

Lanz, my loves! The boy with the pouty lips. The most attractive in our RLE! Ang parating bida. The In love. Haha. Thank you for always reminding me that I'm beautiful. I know you're very sincere with your words. I know, I know! Haha! But seriously, thank you for being such a wonderful man. Thank you for always hugging me! I heart you!

Alayne, my pillow. Thank you for always lending me your shoulders whenever I needed to sigh. Thank you for being so sweet and nice. Thank you for sharing thoughts I needed to know during the moments I needed them most. I will never ever forget the chitchats we had. I'll always be your love guru too.

Marc, the father of my future children! Hahaha. Well, he was the one who told me that! Sorry, Aileen. You're the most charming of all. Thank you for the stories we shared everytime we go home together since our dorms are adjacent to each other. You know that Boobies love you because you've always been there on our lunch and dinner dates. And for being worth the trust we give you. Good luck future MD!

Shalaine, my confider. People may not know, but we have a lot of things in common with regards to that thing, I know, I cannot utter here. I've bullied you a lot of times but I hope you never took anything of it seriously. It's just how I show my love for my friends like you. Thank you for lending me your ears. Thank you for being so nice to everyone. You are so much appreciated, if you only know. So, never think that you're a wall flower because you're a friend who's one of a kind. Thank you Sha!

Jo, my favorite seatmate! Any problem with that!? Haha. We shared a lot of secrets even those which others wouldn't really understand. We had a lot of misunderstandings but I know, there'd come a time when we'll just laugh at all of it and realize how much we grew from it. I love you Jo! You know that! You should! Thank you for keeping my face out of sight when I sleep in class and thank you for everything! Really, EVERYTHING!

Niel, my laughing partner. A lot of times, I really don't understand why you suddenly turn silent. Now I've seen how wonderful you are as a person. You've shared a lot of things you entrusted us to keep and it is much appreciated that you gave us your trust. Thank you for being the most awesome uncle of all!

JR, my best boy friend. Thank you for being the best guy friend I ever had in my entire College life. Thank you for helping me learn a lot of things I never knew that I could ever learn in my entire life. Thank you for always being there for everyone! Thank you for helping me have the courage to risk my heart again. Thank you for keeping my secret, unlike Lanz who spills it out always! 

6. Boobies

Last photo together :)

One of the best gifts I ever received from God!

Chloe, my Korean Lover. We've been through a lot. You know that. But I guess, we love each other too much to make things get bad. I know, our friendship will always be there no matter how far you may go. You're older than me by birthdate but you're my little sister who I've always wanted to take care of. You showed me a lot of things and you made me feel that I can be the most responsible person that I could ever be. Thank you so much for being there no matter what had happened in the past. I love you that much that not a thing could ever break the friendship I have for you.

Jocs, my Paulinian Lover. There were countless times, you may not know, when I come to your place and sit beside you, I just wanted to have a friend to talk to. You were so neutral that I could never learn to hate you. Honestly, you flatter me too much at times because you compliment too much. Hahaha. We share a lot of things in common and I love every part of you that you shared to me. I love you, I always will!

Ai, my Boob Lover. You've been the mother of the boobies, obviously. Haha, kidding. No, seriously, you showed me the reason why I still need to give a lot of my best. You touched my heart in a way, no one else could ever do. You helped me avoid impulsive shopping and I really thank you for that cause I save a lot of money now. Haha. But thank you, really, for being there to help me get back on my feet. Love you!

Jen, my Romantic Lover. You're the person I've been with the longest and it was you who I learned from the most. Thank you for being so kind that you always try to understand my mood swings. Thank you for always keeping my heart safe. I have already cried a lot of times on your shoulder and I've always thanked God for giving me a friend like you. You should never change because it is who you are why people love you so dearly. I love you Jen, it's just bittersweet to think we're almost parting.

*****

Maybe I've done something good to deserve all of you. All of you made a part in my life as I have said since earlier. I guess, this good bye would just be the start for a new better life ahead of us.

To God, you're the best! I owe you my everything!

To Bom, Thank you for being with me in this journey!

To the professors who've been so kind, thank you for helping us grow!

To UST, thank you for the unending grace you showered upon me. It sure helped me surpass all the trials that I have encountered during my college life.

To Sunsuites, my dormitory, thank you for reminding me that there's still home away from home.

To Dapitan, Lacson, Espanya and P. Noval, thank you for the good food I have tasted along your allies both healthy and contaminated.

To everyone, thank you so much! I owe my life to all of you!

P.S.

My inspiration. :)

we all ya fat yo! :))

*****

Now in tears. :')

Mapple Tree

I was in the fourth grade when I had this bestfriend of mine who happened to be a boy. He had this crazy, cute, messy smile which I have always stared at. He never noticed that he was my first love. I have always been wishing, HE WAS MINE.  He drinks my orange juice every recess. He shares with my umbrella every time there was rain. Every after class, he walks me home so he could spend time at home to copy some notes that I had. I also loved how we hanged out under the maple tree. I was his tutor in English because he was performing poorly. I enjoyed how we shared smiles and thoughts at that place. But I knew it, he never noticed me the way I had noticed him. I like him, I love him, but I never had the guts to tell him. I feared and I don’t know why.

We were in High School when I really dreamt of having him as my date during our prom but I was too shy to ask him because we were only friends. Best friends, we can only be. A month before the prom, he went to me very frustrated. He was telling me that his date is sick. He asked me to be the substitute of his date. I agreed. So as with the condition that we’ll be going out as friends. Just friends. The prom went well, he was staring at me while we were dancing The King and Queen of Hearts. At that moment, I wanted to tell him I love him and that I'd like to be more than his best friend. I wanted to be more than the best friend who had always been his shoulder when he had disappointments. But I was a coward. The night ended without anything that came out of my mouth. I was too shy, I was too afraid to tell the truth. He might get frustrated and our friendship could end the bad way. I’d rather not tell him how I felt than sacrifice what’s left of us.

It was our graduation day when he ran towards me. He hugged me so tight that I didn’t want to let go.  Then he kissed me on my cheek. But I knew, I shouldn’t think of anything that it could possibly mean. All I know is that we were best friends and best friends, we could ever be. He wore out his medal from his loyalty award for the school and hanged it on my neck. I was a little bit surprised. I had the most awkward face at that moment, thank God he quickly added “This is for the bestest Best friend I could ever have.” Yeah, best friend. Best friend, I could ever be. I just gave the awkward grin and bade my good bye. I wanted to tell him I love him. I wanted him to be mine. But I couldn’t, I feared.

Long months passed, we got separate lives during college. He always tried to contact me through phone and emails but I was too busy with my schooling. Read some e-mails and heard some voice mails. He was always talking about this girl he met at the bar during a freshman night. He told me he liked her and that he had plans of dating her. Every week, he sent me e-mails, I got tired of reading same stuffs about this girl so I started to ignore his messages. But that time, I still wanted him to be mine. I really do. But he liked someone and that we were best friends and Best friends we could ever be.

Years passed, I was sitting on a bench of the church watching him getting married to the girl he had talked about since college. They were happy, they told each other their vows. I was teary-eyed cause it was the end of my fantasy that one day, my best friend could ever notice the glances I gave him. I want him to be mine. But I was just a best friend, he is in love with some body. And best friend, I COULD EVER BE.

I had to live my life satisfying myself with the family I have. I know that the first love that I’ve been through was tough but it had taught me how to fight for love. I am now old, I have lost a lot. News came to me that he is already dead. I visited his funeral. I was there, he was about to be buried. Before the land closes him underneath, someone from his family read a letter he wrote way back when he was in High School. It went this way.

“My first love... I have always loved the way she cares for me, the way she had always thought of me before herself. I loved her since the brink of my life and I know I’ll love her ‘til the rest. I loved how she taught me on my weaknesses. And I loved how she smiles at me. It had always brightened up my day. I most especially love how she catches me whenever I fell down. But I never had the chance to tell her the truth. I feared, I was too shy. I was afraid that she might end the good friendship we have. I know I am just a best friend. And Best friend, I could ever be. Best friends, we could ever be.”

I felt so terrified. I just didn’t know exactly how to feel. He had loved me, he was mine. And I suddenly realized that he is being buried under the same maple tree we have always been going to.

If only...

(INSPIRATION: Friends' real-life stories and a story I've read long ago.)

8 Days Before Valentine's

I arrived our classroom for our HETAR class feeling a little bit different. The classroom was the same, but the people in it weren't. Seemed like everyone's fidgety about the homeworks but still very buoyant with regards to their mood. 


That thing that happened the past night became the center of attention. Well, actually, not only with the past night but also with what happened the past week. O, Saturday, it is. 
NOTE: I am not imposing anything with this blog entry alright, just thought of making one cause the day is perfect for Valentine's day. :)


One friend of mine, let's hide him using the name Lawrence. Hahaha. Well, he started the word of the day which is "Haler!" So I greeted him first thing in the afternoon with it. Well, let's cut this short, I'm too lazy to describe how he reacted. Okay, back. Later in the afternoon, since our first period professor cut the class at 2pm even if the class is still until 3pm, we gained a free-free time. Just so you know, it's nothing new. But the prof insisted that he was the only one attending classes that day. Well, is it even a joke? Anyways, anyways. There was nothing to do anymore since we have accomplished the Socio homework already. My friend Lawrence who is currently linked to my BFF (let's hide her with the name Jenny) had a major major blush. Caught him looking at her. He kept on denying it and I hate it. Hahaha. His cheeks turned to cherry chopsticks. I at least noticed it. And Shalomi did too, and Alma (not their real names. Hahaha.) I am telling the truth you guys, he just had the awesom-est sparkling moment in his life. Well, this is true since he's delayed in terms of puberty. Hahaha. The whole afternoon was spent picking up on them and it's a good thing that they'll be having a good Valentine's Day. Well, I guess, at least. What do you think? Jenny even taught me the lyrics of "It Might Be You." It was epic! First, I have a good voice. Hahaha. Second, it's for Lawrence, hope so! And third, got to sing for my crush too, in my imagination only, of course. Hahaha. 


Anyways, it was a pretty good laughing day with my buddies. Except that we all got scolded because of our wrong assumptions regarding our Billing's Ovulation Method homework. But at least we tried, and it's the good thing about it. Hahaha. I don't know if I am making any sense here, but I just really wanted to jot these things down. So next week, let's make a good Valentine's day no matter what status we have. Tatah! :)


*Of course, you know the people behind the names. Just wanted to have some twists. Hahaha.

Back and Delete

I just thought that I needed to check things out again and try to figure what good thing I could do with them. Then my blog came over my senses and it made me think that I should re-model it in a way. 

While I was surfing my entire blog earlier, I was laughing at myself because I have so many stupid posts before. LITERALLY STUPID, Idiot-some if you may call. They were hilarious! My my, I couldn't even take the guts to read them again. O well, 4 years needed to pass for me to realize that I'm missing on a lot of things. I guess, I've been too much preoccupied with the social networking sites that I have forgotten that blog could even be more useful at this point of time. So I guess, you have noticed it already, I deleted my entire 2008, 2009, 2010 posts! Honestly, I am still smiling at the moment because my blogs were really full of emotions that time and it really sucks because literally they were EMO-tions. So I guess, I really need to ponder on things and get this back in to action. And yeah, I'm pretty inspired with others who're doing some blogging too. I guess, I smothered my mind that this could be benefiting their whole being. I guess so. It's a good thing. REALLY. Well, too much of the drama. I am really hoping that I could see you here more next time. So okay then bye, much love, Ninj. :)